Cory Burell

So normally I’d go on an explosion about how some woman cut me off in line at the Piggly Wiggly but I thought I’d write a few posts about something useful for once. Credit is a basic that everyone should know about but seems to be lost amongst the youth of America. I constantly run into those who can’t manage their money, run the credit cards, and fall into a trap of high interest cards, rate jackings, limit choppage, and terrible scores effecting their overall lives.

I plan on breaking into the basics and then posting on some issues such as current laws such as the new consumer protection acts, fha changes, and how to protect yourself in a tightening economic climate such as ours.

If anyone feels a particular subject is important to them please feel free to send me a message/email and I will address these problems especially if you have a specific problem. Don’t feel shy and I will never leak who/why/when/ or specifics of who the problem is for/about.

YOUR SCORE:

Your credit is worthiness is generally based off of your FICO scoring. This is not to be confused with those silly numbers you get from the 100 free sites you see on the tv. These are FAKO scores. They can be off 100 points in either direction and are a poor judgment of your credit worth.

Here is the basic calculations of a fico score. These differ between the 3 bureaus Experian, Equifax, and Transunion

Payment history – 35% (of Score)

Amounts owed – 30%

Length of credit history – 15%

New credit – 10%

Types of credit used – 10%

This may all seem like jiberesh but is a method to improve your score.

Your payment history is the most important. Think paying that credit cards 30 days late won’t hurt you? WRONG! A single 30 day late can drop your score 20+ points easy. The later the payment the worse off you look. After a certain time frame the account just goes to collections which I will discuss later.

Utilization is next at around 30%. What is utilization? It basically shows the percentage of credit being used. If you have $1500 of usable credit and have 1000 charged you are using 66% of your credit which is bad! Optimal scores are achieved by 10% or less utilization. The higher your limits the lower a base amount will hurt you. I always PIF (pay in full) to keep my scores high. Its not about how much you use but how much is reported. If you use 100% of your limits but pay them off in full before your cc company reports it you still have a 0% utilization. If they report before you pay it off you see 100% and your score drops like a rock!

Length of credit history is important more now more than ever! AA A or average age of accounts determines alot. Lets say you have 4 cards. One has been open for 4 years, 1 for 3 years, and 2 are 6 months old. That leaves you with an average account age of 2 years! New accounts will drop your score until they age. I’ve seen losses of 10+ points for opening a new account. This will depend based on how much your utilization changes also. Again it is a complex formula.

New credit – 10%- See above as they closely relate in explanation.

Types of credit used – 10%- What is your credit comprised of? Do you have a car loan (installment), credit cards (revolving), or a mortgage (installment)? These account types mix and that will help improve your score! Having installment loans actually can help your score with solid payments/completions and also help you get higher limits/more loans. 

My life in the past few years has been anything less than conventional bringing up this post. I have always been the person to make the mistakes, mess something up, but in the end I usually end up smelling like roses out of it.

With my kids getting older I’ve put alot of stress on my own shoulders to finish up school. Yes it would great to do so but with my career it would do about zip for me money or position wise and in all honesty it takes away alot of time from my kids. Just for those of you who don’t know I didn’t get kicked out of school nor was it a failure to do well. My future ex wife was pregnant at the time so money/time was an issue. I never really had a conventional college time anyways minus my freshman year. For most of the time I worked days as an industrial electrician and went to school at night. It worked out great to be honest. Found a love for a job, a great paying career that I’m good at, and am years ahead of most the people I knew from college. The bad part was in my honest opinion I took the bumpier less traveled path. The hours sucked, the work was hard, and at the beginning I made poop for money.

Anyways so back to the point. The thought has always been what do I tell my kids. My parents didn’t goto college, their parents didn’t, and now my kids have been blessed with 2 parents who didn’t finish.  Growing up I never saw much value in studying away the hours of my life. Now years down the road I’ve learned how important that hard work is and try to stick with it every day. But what about them…….what can I preach to them? It haunted me for a long time and not having a father after age 12 I’m not exactly the expert on fatherly figures….or so I thought.

I finally figured it out though and it wasn’t what I expected. Some people in life make all the right decisions and have someone guide them. Great for those parents and great for those kids but alot of times it seems like these people don’t appreciate what they have. I by no means ever want my child to fail but there is a great amount of pride in figuring things out in life yourself. Parents should be less concerned with guiding their children step by step in life but instead giving them the capabilities to deal with life decisions on their own. The pride in saying “I did it” can come from a milestone of any size or flavor. Life isn’t about a piece of paper or the size of your paycheck………………it should be about learning and living.

In all of this pondering I remembered my dad saying “4 Lefts will get you there…you just have to have enough gas”. It never really made sense to me and to be honest my dad said alot things that could be construed as redneck ramblings. Maybe I’m lost in my own demented logic but why in the world would I want to take the common road through life when taking 4 lefts will get you the scenic route? Maybe after all these years of thinking I didn’t get as much out of my dad I’ve finally figured out he was trying to teach me all along.

Anyways I apologize to anyone who read this b/c its pretty much 650 words of complete ramblings but it was just something I’ve been pondering lately.

We are the bovines of the world. Constantly we search for happiness and when we find it we look across the fence and want that grass instead. I’ve had the worst habit ever of always wanting something different once I get what I want whether it be in relationships or life in general.

I buy a car……..and a week later I want something else…….etc. Well it seems to have struck again and think I might just have to stop it. Its time to realize that I’m happy and stop focusing on the things I don’t have. I received a lovely letter from my ex basically chewing me up over things that could not be fixed. Not usually an issue and considering our marriage was silent at the best but this one bothered me a bit. I’ve sat through the greater part of 6 months pondering day and night whether there was anything left of our relationship when for awhile I wanted nothing but out of it. We never talked, never had any affection, and the mood  was reminiscent of Gettysburg the day after. I loved her to death but it was not healthy at all. I’m an outgoing and very communicative person while she is quiet and what not. So I got to thinking……..I’ve been treated like crap, cheated on, and strung along like a lil puppy dog. Now don’t get me wrong this is all just coming back to me according to Seinfield’s theory of Kharma. I did alot of people/women wrong in my younger life and this is most likely God trying to set me straight which I understand. Basically I’ve been given a dose of my own medicine and need to just fix myself.

But anyways back to the point…… I’ve spent so much time focusing on what I don’t have and not on what I do. I have great friends who have been here for me even in my depressive crap state that was like a black cloud floating over me, a job that I love and actually pays haha, and honestly I’ve never had a problem with women. I’m by far not the ugliest person I know (maybe a top ten contendor though) and judging by my everyday conversations with people I’m by no means the dumbest. So basically I limit myself by craving things I really don’t want/need in the first place. I don’t need a cheating wife w/ 150k of debt, and a lack of many other things…..I don’t need all the petty pocessions in the world, and last and most importantly I don’t need to drive myself batshit crazy craving all of these things that only complicate my life to a further extent.

So lets all do ourselves a favor and stop looking over, under, and through the fence and start looking at whats standing behind us because thats where your family & friends are. Thats where true happiness is and what we all need to focus on.

And in the words of styx    Domo arigato Mr. Roboto

Well NYE has rolled by and I’ve been sitting here contemplating what my resolutions would be. Lately it seems like Ive really wanted to change some things in my life and some I’ve already started. My weight is about where I want it to be and if nothing else I really just want to continue toning and working out and just generally improve my health. Other things have been harder and I just need to put my foot down.

Save more money- This is something thats been hard lately with being on one income, the large house expense, and the full costs of the boys falling solely on me but I still think I can do better. I finally set up a number of what I can save and started having it transferred weekly into a savings. Hopefully this will help set up a new house in the next year or 2 when I finally bite the bullet and buy.

Quit Smoking- This is the big one and I’ve tried numerous times before but recently I haven’t even seen a point to smoking at all. It grosses me out and I get nothing out of it but smelly clothes, poor health, and losing 4 bucks a day on something useless.

Get into a hobby- Over the last few months I’ve felt really strung out with working so much, the seperation stuff, and just the general stress of trying to keep the wheels of life spinning every day. It seems like if I could get back into something for me maybe I wouldn’t feel so stressed. My old hobby was pulled out of the driveway last week so no more turning of a wrench on the weekend. Thinking about buying another mountain bike which would help my health also.Trying to home brew some beer might also have to make its way on the list.

So this year has been a crazy one for the pirates. Starting out the season with dramatic wins over VT and just blowing WVU out of the water. Then we head on a 3 game losing streak to finally end up down the road as conference champions and heading to the Liberty bowl.

This is the first year since 76′ that the pirates have captured a conference title and to be honest it really excites me. I’m almost alittle rigid just thinking of ECU’s status in the eyes of others jumping but wait…………we got hosed. Personally I love the improvement and a cusa title is great but that alone isn’t where it ends. The season ends on January second in Memphis. No one ever remembers the first win or the second but always the last game. This year we should have a decent opponent. I know alot of you like myself were looking forward to playing a team along the lines of the Gamecocks but sorry folks thats just not how the cards fell.

Instead of playing a decent SEC team we are facing Kentucky. Now that might not sound terrible but heres what Kentucky has done this year

See that big blank area? THATS NOTHING! Kentucky is 6-6 losing its last 3 games which consisted of Georgia, Vandy, and Tenn. Granted the Georgia game was close but to get smacked by the Vols of all people when you are claiming to be a decent SEC team is terrible. Kentucky was dead last in the East with a conference total of 2-6 only defeating Arkansas and Miss State. So lets take a look at their OOC wins. Yep that consists of Louisville, the mighty Norfolk State, Middle Tennessee, and Western Kentucky. By the way all 4 of these wins were from game 1 to game 4.

Just to take a look at the pirates wins this year we have West Virginia, Virginia Tech, Tulane, Memphis, UCF, Marshall, UAB, UTEP, and Tulsa. Not too shabby there. Tulsa has possibly one of the most impressive offenses in the country but were stopped by the Pirates to get us into the Liberty Bowl. So where is Tulsa going? Thats right they are headed to the Motor Bowl to play Ball State. Wait so you lose the conference championship and get to play #22 in the country but we win and play Kentucky? I’m confused here people. I know theres 8000 bowl games these days but for the love of God can we get some order out of this? It makes about as much sense as the BCS in general.

I understand that all the bowls are just for corporate blowjobs but can we get some football honor thrown in their somewhere. How about Kentucky shouldn’t even be playing in a bowl? 2-6 in conference play is not acceptable no matter if its the SEC or the freaking MAC. Half the damn country is playing in a bowl and half of those shouldn’t.  In CUSA theres 6 teams going to bowls! 6 TEAMS! 68 teams playing in bowls. PRETTY IMPRESSIVE. Now just for giggles lets see what happens if you make 7 wins the cutoff. 59 Teams. God thats still just too much. No heres the really funny part. The ACC which should be the poster boy for mediocrity is sending the entire Atlantic Division to bowls. Only 2 of the teams are over .500 in conference play.

I say no matter what if you can’t win half of your conference games you aren’t go anywhere for the holidays but Grandmas. If you cut out teams that are .500 and less in conference play you take away 20 teams. That leaves 48 teams bowl elig. Much better. Overall I guess it just baffles me that such a fubar’d system can still be in place. Someone must be padding the stats too. Claims are that bowl attendance averages around 60k per game with an 88% capacity. I blame the scalpers and basically everyone else for these misconstrued #’s. I want to see the capacity of how many people are actually going to be sitting in the stands or actually enjoying these games at home. Outside of their respective schools no one gives a shit about half these games.

Basically I just can’t figure out how conference champions regardless of conference are getting crap games while runner ups are getting great matchups. I know Hawaii managed to make complete asses of “smaller” football schools on the public stage but there has to be a system put into to place to make it more interesting. I’m tired of seeing the same schools play for BCS games every year. ECU was called a BCS buster possibility early in the year and while we threw that away they were calling us out after one loss also.

Overall the entire system just seems like crap to me and honestly I doubt I turn on more than 5 bowl games just out of the pure fact that 90% of them are going to be crap games.

So I received some hate mail this week. YES I KNOW…….HARD TO BELIEVE! Evidently I have crossed the line by writing about my personal life in a personal blog. These people are just so angry that I didn’t post the comments too. I mean it they wanted their threats posted on the almighty internets. Let me say something here people. I’m 25 years old, have 2 kids, and do pretty well in life. Quite frankly I’m not into the “lets throw threats around” thing. Its petty and reaks of insecurity. I really hope the people who sent me these threats will take into light that they should be well past this point in their life. May I also add that one of these fine folks is serving overseas. Not only should you be representing yourself as one of Americas best everyday but you should have the control to not overreact to everything in the world. Enough of the preaching lets see what was said.

Nick Duffy
duffman8108@hotmail.com | 208.79.15.100

You motherfucker you say one more thing about my mother or my sister again i will come at you with everything i have you goddamn piece of shit just remember i maybe in Iraq right now but i got friends who arent and will do anything for me if i ask them to remember i know where you live and just wait till i get back you son of a bitch.

That sounds like a threat Nick and a very immature one at that. Tisk tisk. I’m not the ones rummaging through someone elses blog and passing judgement. Like I said in the email you should really worry less about me and more about protecting yourself over there. Also I highly doubt remarks like this would be appreciated but your gov’t.

NEXTTTTTTTTTT

Nick Duffy
duffman8108@hotmail.com | 208.79.15.100

o ya you seemed to leave out the little fact that you cheated on my sister before she even meet that guy. you might want to let all of your “viewers” in on that little tid bit of information. fucken cock sucker. “I love your daughter more than you will ever realize.” ya if that statment was in the least bit true you wouldnt have flown to where ever you did and slept with that tramp. if i didnt make it blatantly obviously i hated your guts ever since the first time i heard you knocked up my sister. you made it o’so much better when she was about to give birth and you wanted to move her back down to N.C. which was a 9 hour drive and then i was the one to pack that entire motherfucken uhaul truck by my self while you just stood around talking on your cell phone the entire fucking time. i didnt even want to be around you and your fucked up family last thanksgiving i would of much rather have been by myself. you need to get the fuck off your mothers tits cause your a goddamn grown man and you should act like it and not keep running back to her everytime you get a “boo-boo” you fucken mammasboy fagot. and if you think this the last of it you just wait till were face to face then you’ll know my true feelings. fucken piece of shit

I especially like the fact you brought these points up nick. First off I never cheated on your sister. The person I went to see I’ve known for 15 years. That would kind of be like me accusing your sister of cheating every time she saw an old friend. Regardless you are wrong and know nothing of me.

Second part. As far as me coming up there to “move” ash she asked me to. She never told you all and I actually should have been the one pissed about that. We drove 9 hours up there since ash told me she was coming back down with us and she never told you/your mom. Don’t believe me……..ask her.

As for coming out for thanksgiving no prob nick. We were glad to have you. If you didn’t feel the same way you shouldn’t have come. My bad for asking you to come eat thanksgiving dinner with my family and your sister. God forbid someone try to do something nice for you. WE ARE SO EVIL!

Also I find it highly ironic you are telling me to get off my “moms tit”. Family is important to me Nick and obviously it is to you too since you are blindly stepping in on a situation you really have no business being in.

NEXTTTTTTTTTT!

CBIAFL
cbiafl@hotmail.com | 71.230.253.206

Everyone knows that you’re a fucking liar and a fake. Time to admit it to yourself bud.

From Everybody Welcome, 2008/11/11 at 8:40 AM

And ash wonders why I never wanted to go see her family. But alas you are right…….I’m such a liar and a fake. Wait………..I’m not fake nor have I ever lied to your family. so close yet no cigar.

duffman
duffman8108@hotmail.com | 208.79.15.100

why havent you posted my comment if you need me to clean up my language i will and still get the same point across if you want to talk to me directly you can reach me at duffman8108@hotmail.com so we could talk man to man and none of your “viewers” need to see any of it ill be waiting to here from you

From Everybody Welcome, 2008/11/12 at 2:19 PM

See I was taking care of my kids. I’m sorry I didn’t have time to check my email over a 24 hour period. My apologies go out to you. Seriously! Honestly though I really like it when you curse over and over again and make blatant threats. It brings out the maturity in your writing and not even in a comical way. Again Nick its “hear” not here. I’m sure spell check works everywhere in the world and even hate mail should be spell checked. See it kind of loses its edge when you misspell half of what you’ve written.

I’m sure this won’t be the last of your contributions to my email but I’m more than welcome to talk about it Nick. The bad part is you have no idea what damage your family has really done out of this situation. Your sister left about 30 seconds after reading your comments crying her eyes out. So really good job on hurting your sisters feelings. The great part is we were talking shortly before that about how I knew your family didn’t like me and she said I was wrong. Tisk Tisk looks like I was dead on the head with that one.

Again Nick I’m sorry you feel this way and I really do feel you are very misinformed on the situation and also I’m struggling with the whole concept of why you felt the need to be so hateful but I hope somewhere down the line you can find a good way to focus your anger and better yourself. Anger only drags you down in life. May I suggest pictures of puppies or even the lolcats. LOLCATS ALWAYS MAKE ME LOL

So alot of you know about my current change in marital status. While the decisions to end the marriage in the fashion that is was done was not my choice I’ve spent the better part of the last month thinking about the past. Yea yea I know…….don’t think about, get out, keep your mind off of it. I’ve heard it all but its just not that easy. Over the last 4 years I guess you could say I’ve gone through a massive transformation. While it wasn’t intentional I guess I great up and advanced my life alil bit. Four years ago I was a drunk and a slacker to say the least. Many nights were spent passed out and not knowing where I would wake up. A cloud of of ignorance blinded me from life.

Anyways, so I kept thinking about what I could have done different. Yes I know this is also a no no. Blaming myself wasn’t helping but it did open my eyes up to alot of things. My marriage was always in trouble due to the fact of pettiness. I wanted to rub in the petty things while she wanted to turn her head away from them. Both of these answers were incorrect and sent us down a path of shittiness. I seemed to care less about the basic happiness in life and more about work/putting food on the table. Being a good husband wasn’t working 12-16 hours a day nor was it sleeping the work off for 6 hours during the day on the weekends. In that way I lost my way not only in my marriage but also love and the principles of life. Pride was no longer in my vocabulary and I could fully understand why I was not appealing to anyone. Atleast in my previous life I had nothing but confidence.

America is such a great country in the fact that we have so many oppourtunities and so petty in the fact that probably 5% of the people actually take advantage of it. We celebrate new years not with love of all our yearly accomplishments and successes but instead a list for next years. Focusing on a singular improvement for a month, tossing it in the trash, and just remaking the exact promise to ourselves the next year. I’m not sure if I’ve ever held myself to a new years resolution and even worse I don’t know many people who hold themselves to resolutions at all.  Is it laziness? Most likely thats the basic cause of everyones problems.

Instead of some precise bullshit item that I want to change I’m switching from a “New Year’s Resolution” to a “Year Long Daily Revolution”. The first step was to try and analyze some of my most basic faults and lay out the cause, consequences, and steps to fix the problem.

1. Problem:My weight was out of control. I just entered the single world not only with 40 lbs of baggage but also 30lbs of fat. I couldn’t gain a lb in college but managed to gain 65 after the fact. No thats not an exageration……….I really got that fat.

Solution: Work out! Eat healthy! When I wake up in the morning I eat a healthy breakfast, do a short workout, and get ready for work. Continue my day with a fairly healthy low fat diet and a more exhausting workout every other day.

Cause: I never had to look at myself and the one I loved never questioned it either. The lines of communication were down and I forgot that even thought it didn’t matter to me what I looked like……it probably did to her. Now all of you know I’m an ugly mother fucker but the least I could do is not kill her if I rolled over in my sleep.

I could keep going on but the list of things to fix is about 25 deep and some of it is probably just derived from a pool of self pity and guilt (yea I know odd combo but shit happens when you think too much in an empty house). Basically what I’m getting at is I think a great system to actually self improve is to look into what other people see and not what we are blinded from. Three months ago I would have to think for 10 minutes to come up with a faults list 5 items long and even then I wouldn’t have taken it seriously. Confidence is a key in life…….arrogance is a blocker of self improvement. Daily reinvention is the only way to actually become the person you want to be. Putting a goal out there for 365 days is garbage. The end result may take that long but everyday you need to wake up and want that goal more and more.

So far I am on week 3 of trying something that sounds so simple as to lose weight. Incredibly I have lost about 15 lbs and almost look half decent. Results are pushing me harder and harder everyday and I’m proud of the fact that I am actually pushing myself torwards a goal. Inspiration has put more goals on my list and made me feel 100x better.

The bottom hurt when I hit it and I hope it was actually the bottom and not just a plateau in the descent on my mind but I guess that fact is to be self determined by no one but myself. Outside of these ramblings I actually had a point to make. When you hit the bottom self pity, rage, and wallowing are usually soon to follow. Wallowing in your own shitty life could be viewed as a terrible thing. It drags a cubic ton of depression into your life and just overall seems to take you further into that abyss. But, instead why don’t we start trying to provide an opposite reaction. Instead of crying of that spilled milk why don’t we clean up the mess and try to make things better than they were before.

I lost someone that I loved more than anyone and yea I still cry at night alone in bed but it has given me the gift that I needed. The silver lining has come to light and its a beautiful bitch with a hourglass figure and Angelina Jolie’s lips. For 3 years I lived for someone else and while that will never change with my children I can live for myself also and be someone that maybe they can look up to someday. So lets everyone stop being who we are and start being who we want to be. Life could end tomorrow……….so be all you can be everyday and take your visions from just that into reality.

Someone told me that old dogs can’t learn new tricks and I would always be who I am. Well I’m sticking 2 fingers in the fucking air. Yes tomorrow I will be who I am but thats because I’m going to make myself a new person every mother fucking day. Take oppourtunity by the fucking back of the head and thrust that slut down because if you don’t its going to grab the back of yours and face fuck you til you have nothing left but a lost sense of dignity and direction.

For anyone who actually reads what I write I apologize. This is a course assignment for a class so my blog will have a few of these random posts in them.

This week was a bloghunter to find 3 blogs that we enjoyed and to post them here. Of course I’ve got to throw Easy E’s blog

www.evankroberts.com

Great site for overall news including some sports.

Next up is Scoog a loogs site which is

www.scottkellam.com

Great useful site for the apple guys out there

3rd is www.fantasyoption.com

This is a great blog about fantasy football.

A good wiki on ecu you will find at

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/East_Carolina_University

Dear Forrest Gumps Mother,

Life is not like a fucking box of chocolates and quite frankly you know what to expect. So far life has a pretty even split between “wtf is this shit” and “happiness”. On any given day I can pretty much predict that at some point I’m going to want to flip out or hit something.

Love,

90% of the world

All joking aside it seems like I’ve come to a crossroads in my life where I’ve had to decide what the difference is between the big things and the small things in life are. This is kind of a “half empty” or “half full” debate going on inside of my mind. For instance you wake up in the morning and straight slam your toe into a wall. Well your bleeding all over the fucking carpet wondering how the hell your day is already shot to shit at 6am. The initial reaction in most people goes something like that. Shouldn’t we be happy that we had a place to bump our toe, a job to be getting up to, or legs to walk around blindly into walls with?

Earlier this week I was contacted and told one of the people we hung out some with in college died in a car accident earlier that week. His fiance, himself, and his 6 day old baby were hit by a train. Pretty much if you took the definition of awful and wrote a story about it you got this situation. They were taking their fucking 6 day old baby to get a check-up. Not sure how that affects everyone else but I have 2 kids and that makes me want to cry. In all honesty since I’ve become a father I’ve calmed down 200% on my activities and what I would call a level of danger in my life. That has always made me feel alittle more secure about hanging around for my kids. My dad died when I was 13 and it was probably one of the hardest things I’ve ever gone through. It really took years for me to get over it and since I’ve had my own boys its seemed to come up again. My dad was in a wheelchair for 2 years before he died and in hospitals for longer than that. Most of the stuff normal kids learned from their dads I learned from my own mistakes so its very hard for me to envision how to teach my kids things and have that true idea of how to be a good father. My father did tell me something and this was coming from a man that lost all power in his body but had the strongest mind of anyone I’ve ever met. He said “appreciate every day you have here”. I may not know exactly what to do for my children all the time but I know I need to do something.

Anyways I just took a 200 word tangent and I apologize to anyone reading this shit its mostly just a rambling as usual. But back to the point…..Life can stop at any point for any one of us and theres not a whole lot we can do to control it so where do we cut these lines of overall happiness and whats really happening in your life. Are we dicks if we don’t think about how lucky we are to walk? The answer is probably yes but do most of us think that way? NOPE! If I look at my life on paper I might be one of the luckiest guys period. I have a great job, a beautiful wife, and 2 great kids. On the flipside of that I’m probably one of the bipolar mother fuckers ever. I’m not saying that in a serious need medication kind of way but I def have my mood swings and it doesn’t take alot to piss me off.

After alot of thought I’ve become a lil more determined to accomplish some of the things I really want in life and I’m going to try and reach some of those long term goals. Some of you are probably sitting there saying O jesus christ heres another sloppy fucking reborn bullshit though process. Well I’m going to throw a twist in there and this is my spin on this. From here out I vow to myself to live life to the fullest. Thats not a “I’m going to enjoy everything” comment thats a “I’m going to live life” comment. Whats the difference? IMHO the full range of emotions are a part of the life. Fuck appreciating the leg……..I want to appreciate the emotion of being angry, I want to flip out when that toe is bleeding, and I want to feel the pain in life because if you don’t all of those great moments will start to lose that feeling of greatness.