Cory Burell

We are the bovines of the world. Constantly we search for happiness and when we find it we look across the fence and want that grass instead. I’ve had the worst habit ever of always wanting something different once I get what I want whether it be in relationships or life in general.

I buy a car……..and a week later I want something else…….etc. Well it seems to have struck again and think I might just have to stop it. Its time to realize that I’m happy and stop focusing on the things I don’t have. I received a lovely letter from my ex basically chewing me up over things that could not be fixed. Not usually an issue and considering our marriage was silent at the best but this one bothered me a bit. I’ve sat through the greater part of 6 months pondering day and night whether there was anything left of our relationship when for awhile I wanted nothing but out of it. We never talked, never had any affection, and the mood  was reminiscent of Gettysburg the day after. I loved her to death but it was not healthy at all. I’m an outgoing and very communicative person while she is quiet and what not. So I got to thinking……..I’ve been treated like crap, cheated on, and strung along like a lil puppy dog. Now don’t get me wrong this is all just coming back to me according to Seinfield’s theory of Kharma. I did alot of people/women wrong in my younger life and this is most likely God trying to set me straight which I understand. Basically I’ve been given a dose of my own medicine and need to just fix myself.

But anyways back to the point…… I’ve spent so much time focusing on what I don’t have and not on what I do. I have great friends who have been here for me even in my depressive crap state that was like a black cloud floating over me, a job that I love and actually pays haha, and honestly I’ve never had a problem with women. I’m by far not the ugliest person I know (maybe a top ten contendor though) and judging by my everyday conversations with people I’m by no means the dumbest. So basically I limit myself by craving things I really don’t want/need in the first place. I don’t need a cheating wife w/ 150k of debt, and a lack of many other things…..I don’t need all the petty pocessions in the world, and last and most importantly I don’t need to drive myself batshit crazy craving all of these things that only complicate my life to a further extent.

So lets all do ourselves a favor and stop looking over, under, and through the fence and start looking at whats standing behind us because thats where your family & friends are. Thats where true happiness is and what we all need to focus on.

And in the words of styx    Domo arigato Mr. Roboto